30-Day Blog Challange

30 Day Self-Reflection Online Journal Challenge – Day 18


Today’s Topic/Question: Do you feel like you’re doing what you were born to do??

Day 18!!

Disclaimer: DO NOT comment on any grammar issues during these 30 days…I don’t grammar check when I write in my physical journal and I won’t do it here. It’s RAW here ok! Thank you.

Do I feel like I am doing what I was born to do? I feel so attacked.

So I think I was born to be a creative. Even though I am doing things that showcase that, I know I am not doing it to the capacity that I should and want to.

I always tell myself, I am constantly striving to to build and grow that side to make a a full-time thing…so to answer the question…NO…LOL

But I’m working on it…

What were you born to do…are you doing it?

Day 18 Down!!!

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30 Day Self-Reflection Online Journal Challenge – Day 14


Water draining at sink background. Water flowing drain in washbasin

Today’s Topic/Question: What drains my energy?

Day 14!

Disclaimer: DO NOT comment on any grammar issues during these 30 days…I don’t grammar check when I write in my physical journal and I won’t do it here. It’s RAW here ok! Thank you.

What drains my energy is shoot life! HAHA! But I guess if I need to be specific, my main job. Which is weird because it not extraneous, but It is mentally exhausting. Listening to patients talk about there health issues ALLL DAY is exhausting.

Not to mentioned the fact that this job is a WASTE OF MY TALENTS!! That’s exhausting in itself. I feel like I’ve actually been emotionally drained recently. Being an empathI tend to feel all the feels of people around me. Wether they are close to me or not, but more when they are close to me. There’s a lot going on with the people I care about, so I am feeling it all and they don’t even know it. And they don’t need to know that I am feeling it. This is usually when I go back to one of my self care routines, usually the trip to the park and crying it out is the help to that.

I also find it draining to not be able to express MY feelings, which is kinda odd because it’s also draining when I express my feelings….It’s the the release is draining and the holding it in is draining. I think the holding it part is draining because I am thinking about the person I probably need to express it to and thinking about how they are going to react to it. The release is draining for obvious reasons, because I tend to keep things to myself longer than I should…

Lastly WRITING THIS IS DRAINING…LOL Just kidding! What drains your evergy?

Day 14 Down!

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30 Day Self-Reflection Online Journal Challenge – Day 12


Today’s Topic/Question: My Top favorite places to go for me time!

Day 12!

Disclaimer: DO NOT comment on any grammar issues during these 30 days…I don’t grammar check when I write in my physical journal and I won’t do it here. It’s RAW here ok! Thank you.

So Ima be honest this ai cop out post! LOL Don’t get me wrong, it was on the list…but I only picked this one for today, because I know I know I am going to have a busy day and this was going to be a busy day, and I didn’t want to get too deep, honestly. (just ot be transparent, tomorrow might be a busy day as well…LOL).

My top favorite places to go:

  1. Washington Square Park (NYC) This became one of favorites a few years ago when I did my maternity shoot. I just Loved the environment and the landmarks. I nice place to pop a squat and read, listen to music, people watch, etc/. It’s also pretty close to Blue Ribbon.
  2. Which brings me to location # 2 Blue Ribbon. If you don’t what Blue Ribbon is, it’s pretty much a dope chicken spot in NY. I Love IT! I mean what else can I say. I should just but NY just say in general. I love going to the NYC in general, Manhattan, Brooklyn, Harlem to be specific.
  3. St. Croix, for obvious reason. My mom is from there, and I have a ton of family there. Plus it’s a beautiful, chill island plus the amount of beaches ad waterfronts I can sit at and just write…is endless!
  4. I like going to ANY park! Literally either walk around it, or pick a spot and sit in my car. My recent favorites have been Echo Lake Park, or Warnaico Park.

I know y’all were expecting maybe some destination type places, but for me when I am I am looking either for peace and Me Time, I want places that bring me calmness and happiness…..Maybe next time I’ll do a post on places I WANT to travel to….What do you guys think. What are some of you favorite place to go?

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30 Day Self-Reflection Online Journal Challenge – Day 10


Today’s Topic/Question: How do you take care of yourself?

Day 10!!

Disclaimer: DO NOT comment on any grammar issues during these 30 days…I don’t grammar check when I write in my physical journal and I won’t do it here. It’s RAW here ok! Thank you.

This question is so fitting for me today. Cause the universe is really messing with my emotions. I know about the Mercury Retro, but this Mars Retro (especially in Aries)!!! FIX IT!!

But there are some rituals I do for some self care. One I did last night was go for a drive…And if you know me, you know I HATE driving. Sometimes I drive to a destination, usually a park, if not maybe just drive around until I get annoyed that I behind the wheel…LOL A park is the best destination for me though (or a water front). LOL. Sometimes I just sit and think, which usually ends in me crying, or Marco Polo-ing friends for support.

Also Another thing I like doing, is self grooming…That can be from anything, like doing my hair, doing my makeup (This is probably #1), also maybe waxing my legs, or doing my Brazilian. Matter fact need to wax my legs soon!!! HA!

Another thing I like to do is work out. I feel like that’s a given though for a lot of us. I know a lot of people work out to relieve stress, but I work out because I don’t want a big stomach!! The stress reliever part is just an added bonus! LOL So i’ll take it.

Lastly, Meditation is also a BIG part of my life!! Lighting my incense and/or candles and just sitting down and clearing my mind completely. When it comes to meditation I can completely zone out, and not hear ANY noise. Like, I have to set an obnoxious alarm to snap me out of it.

Also, I could obviously say journaling, but I think that pretty obvious!

I think when I think of taking care of myself, I think of doing things to either release emotions or Keep you mind from wondering. It’s gets very difficult to do self care, because life can get in the way and you get distracted. But you gotta take those moments. Even if it is for 30 mins a day or every other day. Shoot sometimes you need it multiple times a day…TAKE IT! Some days, weeks, months will be worse than others.

What are some ways you guys take care of yourselves?

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