30-Day Blog Challange

30 Day Self-Reflection Online Journal Challenge – Day 14


Water draining at sink background. Water flowing drain in washbasin

Today’s Topic/Question: What drains my energy?

Day 14!

Disclaimer: DO NOT comment on any grammar issues during these 30 days…I don’t grammar check when I write in my physical journal and I won’t do it here. It’s RAW here ok! Thank you.

What drains my energy is shoot life! HAHA! But I guess if I need to be specific, my main job. Which is weird because it not extraneous, but It is mentally exhausting. Listening to patients talk about there health issues ALLL DAY is exhausting.

Not to mentioned the fact that this job is a WASTE OF MY TALENTS!! That’s exhausting in itself. I feel like I’ve actually been emotionally drained recently. Being an empathI tend to feel all the feels of people around me. Wether they are close to me or not, but more when they are close to me. There’s a lot going on with the people I care about, so I am feeling it all and they don’t even know it. And they don’t need to know that I am feeling it. This is usually when I go back to one of my self care routines, usually the trip to the park and crying it out is the help to that.

I also find it draining to not be able to express MY feelings, which is kinda odd because it’s also draining when I express my feelings….It’s the the release is draining and the holding it in is draining. I think the holding it part is draining because I am thinking about the person I probably need to express it to and thinking about how they are going to react to it. The release is draining for obvious reasons, because I tend to keep things to myself longer than I should…

Lastly WRITING THIS IS DRAINING…LOL Just kidding! What drains your evergy?

Day 14 Down!

30-Day Blog Challange

30-Day Blog Challenge *Day 20*


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Day20

Relationships & Sex

Ticking Clock?? Lonely & Unhappy…


There is something that I have been noticing about women and it made me question it. Why do some women walk around like there is a ticking clock on their backs? Like the, “OMG, I’m thirty and haven’t been married yet or had any kids!!!” For me, when I look around and see women who have had kids and who have been married; some are still married, some were divorced before they even hit thirty, and they still aren’t happy. Do you feel like you time is running out?? And if it does run out will your biggest regret be that you never had kids or never got married?? I mean really will that be the BIGGEST regret you have??  I am not here to invalidate anyone’s feelings. You feel what you feel. But age does not have to be an indicator of “baggage”.

Talking with my girlfriends the word lonely comes up a lot. In fact, I know people who feel just as alone when they are with a man and/or in a room full of people. If you still end up feeling lonely and filled with insecurity in spite of the fact that you have a man in your life, why do you still feel that having a man, a relationship, having casual relationships, having sex, having attention from these people, having more issues to deal with that result from being involved with these men, is the answer to your problems? Continue reading “Ticking Clock?? Lonely & Unhappy…”