30-Day Blog Challange

30 Day Self-Reflection Online Journal Challenge – Day 9


Today’s Topic/Question: What do I need less of in my life?

Day Nine!!

Disclaimer: DO NOT comment on any grammar issues during these 30 days…I don’t grammar check when I write in my physical journal and I won’t do it here. It’s RAW here ok! Thank you.

SOOOOOO…this might come off like a little bit of a rant…but I mean a journal is a release right?? What I need less of in my life? Let’s start with this, Inconsistency. It’s the Inconsistent men for me! I feel like we end up in these dating scenes and there’s always this whoever I want doesn’t want me and whoever wants me I don’t want them…LOL Or if we want each other the timing is just off! Like what in the world? Are we just made to settle for whoever loves us more than we love them? Is that a relationship? I guess I can’t settle into that mentality, which at times make me feel like am I just meant to be in the single world life. IDK, I felt like I met someone who is EVERYTHING I was looking for, then life happened to them, and I guess what we had going on got push to the back burner. Which his life circumstance, is definitely UNDERSTANDABLE. But I was kinda looking forward to having someone I can talk to again, hang out with again, someone can I call when I was lonely, someone I can cuddle with, someone when I am sick I can call to be there for me…you know…those types of things. But I’ll be patient for now, but at the end of the day, we all have our needs/wants. And I don’t mean sexually, I just me a sense of intimacy. But I understand his situation completely, so he has little rope.

I also need less stress. But I don’t really know how to avoid that! I feel like right now it’ll stressful to some capacity. I mean more Money wold help with my stress which I am working on soo, stay tuned.

The funny thing is I don’t keep a lot of what I don’t need in my life. If I feel like a something is draining, I usually just cut it out of my life. Like I can say negativity, drama, etc. But I cut those out usually as soon as it becomes too much. The only reason these 2 are on my list, is because they are either something I can’t control, or something I can understand. Again everything gets a LITTLE rope but we all have our boiling points.

I really wanna talk about what I need more of…LOL Maybe I’ll save that for tomorrow or a future post…LOL

What do you need less of in your life?

Day Nine Down!!!