Relationships & Sex

You Ain’t my Momma


I went through my High School yearbook and counted how many classmates of mine that I know for a fact, had kids. About 10% of my graduating class has given birth. That 10% only includes people who I know had kids and don’t included people who I don’t have contact with anymore to even know if they have kids or not…so that percentage could be higher so let’s just scoot that number up to 15% to be safe. Now I fall into the 85% who don’t have any kids. Some of those people who fall into the 85% use to date the people who now fall into the 15% of people who have kids. I wonder how they would feel about dating them now that they have kids. Does someone having kids affect if you would date them or not?

 

People say, the older you get. The chances of meeting someone who never had kids get slimmer. Other people say I’ve waited this long, why should I settle now. But is dating someone with kids really settling or is more of a compromise? He’s a great guy, treats you right, has a promising career and faithful…the one “downfall,” he has a baby. What do you do?

I’m in my 20’s and childless. I have no one to worry about except myself…which mean it’s natural for me to be selfish, which I am well within my right to be. I don’t like coming second to anyone or anything. Let’s just say, when I go to the hair dresser, I schedule myself, for the earliest appointment possible and I arrive 15mins early, so I can be the first one in and the first one out. I don’t want anyone ahead of me. For me dating someone with kids, keeps me at 2nd, regardless of what I do.

 

People say it different kind of a relationship between a girlfriend/boyfriend and a child, but bottom line…if there was a gun to your head and a gun to their child’s head; guess who’s taking the bullet??, which is understandable and the obvious decision. 2nd place is 2nd place no matter which way your try to sugar coat it. And if you think about it, you’re actually 3rd, because now the baby mommas come before you too. Think about this scenario, gun to your girlfriend and gun to the mother of your child…. MMM? Yea I’m dead Bitch…Of course that scenario is the most extreme and hopefully no one ever gets to that point. But I’m just saying.

 

I feel this way for lots of reason. Remember the movie Sex in the City? Remember how the excitement of getting married no longer existed to Mr. Big because he’d been through it before? That’s how I feel about someone having kids…that initial excitement of having your first child has already been experienced with someone else. Yea having a baby is always an “exciting” experience, but there’s nothing like the first time, period. And quite frankly I don’t want to hear, “Oh when I had such and such, it went like this and went like that.” There’s always going to be comparison to that FIRST experience, which I had nothing to do with me. I don’t know about you, but I hate being compared to someone else.

 

Another thing that doesn’t quite sit well with me is the fact that, there’s this baby momma in the background, that’s always going to have this baby over the father’s head. Not saying all women are evil baby mommas, but she cool now because she know her and your child together will always come before anyone, and honestly no one can threaten that at anytime.  To love someone is to love them and everything that comes with them, but damn, it hard enough being in a relationship with one person, now I got to worry about kids & baby mommas too…I mean I’m always down for a challenge, but there’s no comparison when it comes to family and whether I want it not, Baby Mommas are part of the family.

 

Exhale, it’s too much. Especially when you’re in your 20’s and you’re just starting to find yourself and start looking for someone to share your life with, but only to find they are already sharing their life with someone else, whether you’re in their life or not. To me it’s competition, competition with the child and completion with the momma. You want to spend all your free time with your man, but you know you can’t because now their free time has to be divided between you and their child.

 

My initial advice for people who have kids is to date someone who has kids as well. They’ll probably be more understanding and more sensitive to the fact. But even, people with kids sometimes don’t want to date someone with kids. I can understand to some extent because again, it’s all about being number one, and if you have a child of your own and you date someone with kids, you and your child wouldn’t come first either. This is the ultimate selfishness, because it’s like asking someone to hold to a standard that you didn’t. To me it’s the equivalent to asking a man to have a job and car, but you don’t. Huh? Where they do that at??

 

Kids get older, attitudes change. The,” You’re not my mother! You can’t tell me what to do!” tactics start kicking in. Who wants to be bothered with that in their 20’s, especially when it’s someone else’s child whose ass you can’t lay the smack down on…HAHA. Now being in your 20’s, you don’t have to date someone with kids. Maybe if I was like 35+ the pickings are starting to get even slimmer, maybe even down to the bare minimum…But if you do end up in the situation in your 20’s, you have to decide if this is the kind of sacrifice you want to make? Is the person worth it?

 

You know people always ask me, well what if it were you who had a baby and trying to find a date; How would you feel if a guy said he wouldn’t date you because you had a baby? But Sorry, I don’t live my life based on what ifs; I live my life based on what is!!! And what it is, at the end of the day and as vain as it may sound I don’t have a baby. So I don’t have to worry about it. If we lived our lives based on what ifs we would still be trying to build fire with sticks. But if I had to answer the question about a guy not wanting to date me because of the sole fact that I had a baby, my answer would be, he well with in his right to make that decision. People have to understand, having kids is instant baggage. It’s not a carry-on that you can just toss whenever you don’t want it.

 

Sometimes it’s not the child; it’s the ex you had the baby with. Being single and not having any kids, once I break up with an ex, it’s over and I usually have no contact with that person ever again. Being with someone who has kids, your ex will ALWAYS be a part of your life. Yea you may miss out on a great person by not dating someone who has a child, but maybe you’ve also lucked out, and missed out on a having bratty ass kids around, and a baby momma who secretly wants her baby father back…I’m not saying all situations are bad, but you have to weigh your options a really decide if this is the kind of commitment you want to make. Are you really ready to take that on? To me, you have to be willing and ok with not being at the top of the list. Maybe being in at least the top 5 is good enough. Good enough…OOOO, those words just irk me. Why have good enough, when u can have the best. MMM, I’m on the fence about this for real. But like I said before, are you compromising your want to suit other people’s situation? It may sound like your settling, but is it settling if you happy? When you find someone who makes you happy, this will have to be something you seriously think about, once you choose to accept it (or not) you have to be willing to face whatever consequences or chances that may happen,  both the good and the bad, because that’s what it’ll be, something you just have to deal with.

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